What is romance, if not
the language the heart speaks, its awakening, its longings? I’ve heard so often that feelings don’t
count, don’t matter. And as a woman, I feel a sort of shame of them. And while
the horse shouldn’t pull the cart, I am left empty if I consider that God
created in me feelings that I shouldn’t feel, like a bird told not to sing, or a
flower not to blossom.
And then I read this: Matthew 22:15 “Then He said
to them, “With fervent desire I
have desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer” The word for desire
is epithumeō, which means: to set the heart upon, that is, long
for … Our Jesus longed for the companionship of His closest friends. And He
longed fervently.
I too long. We all do.
We read that Jesus
wept, that He loved. He was joyful. He was angry, exasperated at times. He felt
fear, longed for companionship. He was tired. In His human nature, He never
sinned by feeling these ways, but He did
feel. Love feels. It feels the pain of loss, it feels the joy in sharing love,
feels the comfort of being loved. Love is anything but stony. Love cannot come
from hardened hearts.
Love comes from hearts
that are receptive, hearts that still feel. The problem with feelings is that
they often lie, manipulate, and steal.
And we can choose which feelings we wear, choose which feelings we
believe. My husband may tell me I look beautiful 100 times before I see his
glance catch upon me, and without words I finally believe him. Our hearts still look for convincing, because
ultimately our hearts feel.
Our Jesus did not sin
when he was angry. He did not sin, no matter how he felt. But He did feel. And
He did desire-- long for people. I long
for companionship, long for love, long for convincing. But if all of that is but
a shadow to my deepest longing for a relationship with my living Savior—than I
think birds can sing in the background.
Love romances because
love feels. And He made it that way.
My sonnet from Him
today is knowing that He’s the One who knows each thought and feeling better
than I know them myself, knowing that He gave me a heart that can feel. And
knowing the He loves me yesterday, today and forever.
Care to see where we've been on this 21 Days of Romance? (Seeking out romance in His word) You might like to see:
Day 5: God created us for romance. Will I choose it?
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